Separate Myself

Ever since birth I've always separated myself
By the way I walked, talked, and asked for help
When people go left I go right
When they like one thing I like another
When everyone says swag I say I got IT
When everyone stay simple minded. I think outside the box
When they wayne, I like eminem
Not to say I don't like things. I just separate for them
These days from music to television
People are brainwashed. That's why I always envision
While people like Mj
I like magic
While people have many ladies
I separate myself to find that 1
that makes life worth living
I separate myself to push myself further
Like my mother and brother told me. Go farther
I wish that other people do the same
Because if we don't how will we change the game?
The game is life and enjoying different things
When people listen to rap in the morning, I listen to the birds sing.
There's only 2 things that we never can separate
Death, and time we all can't separate
So until those catch up me I'm always separating myself
If I be different people would notice me more.
So why keep the same people in your life that'll do you harm?
Be yourself and separate yourself from the pack

Your World

Now I 'm done for the semester I'm ready to write hope you like this.Inspired by the song Drop the world by lil wayne feat eminem and Kid Cudi- My World

Back against the wall
Either I rise or fall
The phoenix is coming out me
Through my eyes you're seeing the fire
What I want in this life is all my desires
I can't be tired because you look for it
Like you see a crack in my heart and you want to stab it
Weakness I will never show for the sake of my family
The world is mine and all I want to achieve
Like MJ, Obama, MLK, stevie Wonder, pioneers of my race all I got to do is believe
Follow me if you want I'll train you to be a leader
Not for my dreams but for your own
In my life I've experienced hate, and love from different aspects
But it made me who I am today without it I'm lifeless
People take my kindness for weakness
It just shows that I'm fearless
God put people in my life to show me what I want
Others a well for the things I don't want
He's controls the earth and everything in it
But for everything through my eyes I control it
Like a play and I'm the director
For my real brothers and sisters working hard in this cold world
You'll get everything and achieve better than history books we read
Just believe in god and your abilities and you'll see
Through everything you can your world and everything in it

Love

Something that's unconditional
Something that is seen to many as fictional
It's the greatest feeling of the world
The most deadliest thing as well
From siblings to spouses
We all have it no matter what
It make your heart blossom like a flower
Or make it turn cold and make you not feel for another
No matter how strong you think you are
Without it in lie you can't go far
Whether it's for a sports team you like or hate
that passion is always their as well
Everything we do in this life is for it
Shapes in many things like sport, craft, game, person, religions
Sacrifices in life for people can change your decisions
It can also make you blind
To things that are bad for you but it can cloud your mind
The beauty of it is never questioned
That's why when god take someone we love it's for a reason
It's the best feeling in the world when people show it
Because it shows people that someone appreciates you
We take it for granted sometimes
For that sin it can be taken away from you within a second
We all show it through many ways
Smiles, frowns, being nice or mean
It can be tough and push people to greatness
Or make them fall
People wish their entire life to find someone that'll do the same
for who they are and not push to be anything their not
No matter what it is I know that it was sent from above
God, family, friends, spouses, parents, sports, religion, music, everything in this life is all about love.

Pressure

First One Of the New Year

Things we go through everyday
To compete with your peers so you won't be topic of he say she say
What a woman go through to keep her man
What a good guy go through to not be like her ex
What society puts an individual to lose his mind
Whether what decision in life you have to face it's always there
To keep or find a job to keep your family sheltered
To pick the right college that keep your family in your grace
What keeps me going to take care of my family in the future
Some things people do in order to stay in the inner popularity
This can put kids to head down the wrong path
If they can't handle it makes them wish they were dead
Makes you stressed and smoke or drink
Can do the opposite and make a person push harder than ever
Can help or hurt because you have people looking at you
See how it push family members to end their lives
If not ready to handle can hurt whether than help
Push athletes further to achieve greater things than their Idols
sometimes this life make pressure and you forget to be yourself
Can push you to drive to do drugs
Make you make a mistake because everyone's doing it
Do something to fit in and be cool
Pressure puts everyone in different situations
Makes you stressed more than you should be
It can build or destroy your self esteem
I should know it drove me to write because nobody would take the time to listen
Pressure can make you push people you really love away
Make you choose the wrong person for you because your friends have significant others
Always remember it's pressure in everything in this life
But if you take the time to handle it the right way
The only person in this life will be you to have the final Say

I'm scared

Writing this because nobody hears me. Hopefully Y'all hear me. If not, then what more can I do.

Everyday I'm scared of many things
I'm scared of falling in love with you
I'm scared of not trying my best
Scared of being different
Why do I feel these things about myself?
I'm scared of letting people knowing me
I'm scared to speak my mind
I'm scared to ask that person out
I’m scared you just use me for my body and not what’s in my heart
Why can’t I ever get help in this life?
I’m scared that things will never go right
I'm scared to fail
I'm scared to let my family down because I'm the last hope
I'm scared to tell him I'm pregnant
I'm scared to leave because what might happen to me
Walking alone why does doubt and fear comes over me
I'm scared to get an abortion
I'm scared to pray to god
I'm scared I might to hell for my sins
I'm scared to leave the nest
I'm scared to live in the present
My mind is so locked because people tell me what I am
Scared of what tomorrow might bring
Scared to live in the moment
I'm scared to go to the doctor
I’m Scared of dying
I'm scared because of the consequences of my actions
I'm scared for the future for my Kids
Turn me being scared into motivation to fly or else I’ll never know
I’m scared for our generation
I’m scared of being discriminated because of the color of my skin
I'm scared for my country
I'm scared to go to war
I'm scared because of my fear
I'm scared of everything
But God and Motivation breaks anything I'm scared of.

Lost Beauty

This note is a special one for that somebody. Is it you?

Our connection is never matched
Like god is the artist and made us a perfect match
I never could tell you how I feel about you
Some way in a universe you already knew
Gorgeous you are very intelligent
So why I never had you?
Even though you were the apple of my eye
you had someone else and all I can do is sigh
Maybe just being me and sweet is what you need
But you just choose the opposite and overlook me
Your beauty was always found when I look into your eyes
But it's been lost because we never kept in touch
If destiny is ever meant to be. I'll find you again
All time can do is make our lessons we learned even better
Who knows the answer but our maker
Always remember when we first met
Hold it dear to my heart because you're very special
The happiest times I have will always be with you
There's always an empty void I have because of the what if's
I feel like it's going to turn around
We finally connect back to where we once were
I wake up because it's all a dream
Every night it's you I see
When I wake up is just the night I'm seeing
I have to capture your heat because you're s special to me
Now I know why your a lost beauty

Lost Beauty