Love

Something that's unconditional
Something that is seen to many as fictional
It's the greatest feeling of the world
The most deadliest thing as well
From siblings to spouses
We all have it no matter what
It make your heart blossom like a flower
Or make it turn cold and make you not feel for another
No matter how strong you think you are
Without it in lie you can't go far
Whether it's for a sports team you like or hate
that passion is always their as well
Everything we do in this life is for it
Shapes in many things like sport, craft, game, person, religions
Sacrifices in life for people can change your decisions
It can also make you blind
To things that are bad for you but it can cloud your mind
The beauty of it is never questioned
That's why when god take someone we love it's for a reason
It's the best feeling in the world when people show it
Because it shows people that someone appreciates you
We take it for granted sometimes
For that sin it can be taken away from you within a second
We all show it through many ways
Smiles, frowns, being nice or mean
It can be tough and push people to greatness
Or make them fall
People wish their entire life to find someone that'll do the same
for who they are and not push to be anything their not
No matter what it is I know that it was sent from above
God, family, friends, spouses, parents, sports, religion, music, everything in this life is all about love.

Pressure

First One Of the New Year

Things we go through everyday
To compete with your peers so you won't be topic of he say she say
What a woman go through to keep her man
What a good guy go through to not be like her ex
What society puts an individual to lose his mind
Whether what decision in life you have to face it's always there
To keep or find a job to keep your family sheltered
To pick the right college that keep your family in your grace
What keeps me going to take care of my family in the future
Some things people do in order to stay in the inner popularity
This can put kids to head down the wrong path
If they can't handle it makes them wish they were dead
Makes you stressed and smoke or drink
Can do the opposite and make a person push harder than ever
Can help or hurt because you have people looking at you
See how it push family members to end their lives
If not ready to handle can hurt whether than help
Push athletes further to achieve greater things than their Idols
sometimes this life make pressure and you forget to be yourself
Can push you to drive to do drugs
Make you make a mistake because everyone's doing it
Do something to fit in and be cool
Pressure puts everyone in different situations
Makes you stressed more than you should be
It can build or destroy your self esteem
I should know it drove me to write because nobody would take the time to listen
Pressure can make you push people you really love away
Make you choose the wrong person for you because your friends have significant others
Always remember it's pressure in everything in this life
But if you take the time to handle it the right way
The only person in this life will be you to have the final Say

I'm scared

Writing this because nobody hears me. Hopefully Y'all hear me. If not, then what more can I do.

Everyday I'm scared of many things
I'm scared of falling in love with you
I'm scared of not trying my best
Scared of being different
Why do I feel these things about myself?
I'm scared of letting people knowing me
I'm scared to speak my mind
I'm scared to ask that person out
I’m scared you just use me for my body and not what’s in my heart
Why can’t I ever get help in this life?
I’m scared that things will never go right
I'm scared to fail
I'm scared to let my family down because I'm the last hope
I'm scared to tell him I'm pregnant
I'm scared to leave because what might happen to me
Walking alone why does doubt and fear comes over me
I'm scared to get an abortion
I'm scared to pray to god
I'm scared I might to hell for my sins
I'm scared to leave the nest
I'm scared to live in the present
My mind is so locked because people tell me what I am
Scared of what tomorrow might bring
Scared to live in the moment
I'm scared to go to the doctor
I’m Scared of dying
I'm scared because of the consequences of my actions
I'm scared for the future for my Kids
Turn me being scared into motivation to fly or else I’ll never know
I’m scared for our generation
I’m scared of being discriminated because of the color of my skin
I'm scared for my country
I'm scared to go to war
I'm scared because of my fear
I'm scared of everything
But God and Motivation breaks anything I'm scared of.

Lost Beauty

This note is a special one for that somebody. Is it you?

Our connection is never matched
Like god is the artist and made us a perfect match
I never could tell you how I feel about you
Some way in a universe you already knew
Gorgeous you are very intelligent
So why I never had you?
Even though you were the apple of my eye
you had someone else and all I can do is sigh
Maybe just being me and sweet is what you need
But you just choose the opposite and overlook me
Your beauty was always found when I look into your eyes
But it's been lost because we never kept in touch
If destiny is ever meant to be. I'll find you again
All time can do is make our lessons we learned even better
Who knows the answer but our maker
Always remember when we first met
Hold it dear to my heart because you're very special
The happiest times I have will always be with you
There's always an empty void I have because of the what if's
I feel like it's going to turn around
We finally connect back to where we once were
I wake up because it's all a dream
Every night it's you I see
When I wake up is just the night I'm seeing
I have to capture your heat because you're s special to me
Now I know why your a lost beauty

Lost Beauty

Chinky Eyes

When you look at his chinky eyes what do you see?
Do you see a brother who's making positive moves to set his people free
Or you see a criminal waiting for society to push him over the edge
When you see his eyes do you see fire
Rage and passion that he carries within to motivate people with desire
Iguess when you look in his eyes you see mysterious
Because he walks with confidence but doesn't talk a lot
A person that thinks a lot and isn't controlled by people like a robot
A person that gets overlooked
But when he speak have people shooked
I know what it is when you look into his chinky eyes
You think he's weird because he's a gentlemen and does nice things to your surprise
He's selfless and you want to take advantage of him
You want to use everything and break him down.
A chance that's very slim
This is what I see when I see his chinky eyes
I see a person who's ambitious to do great things
When he wanted to fit in he stand out so much that he follow his own path
Like a mathematician he subtracts followers and add leaders.
Even when things turn out bad
Through his eyes you never see him sad
People say you can tell a lot through a person's eyes
I see him always keeping his eyes on the prize
The kind of eyes that stops people and they get hypnotized
You'll never see him show panic
Through his eyes he sees his destiny
Nobody takes the time to look into his eyes
But when they do they say "I've never noticed before but you have chinky eyes" How do I know this person with these chinky eyes?
Because I'm the person with those chinky eyes

Flaws

A thing that makes me want to improve
Something we all work on to make our strengths
Flaws are supposed to be visible to all
Criticism of them all by people may make us want to fall
Whether it's attitude, trust,love or something else
Like a ghost it haunt us everyday
We don't want to show them
So we try so hard to be perfect so no one won't pick them out
Our flaws make it hard for us to be confident
I should know because my biggest flaw is taking help
So what do I do? I try to make another feel bad
Flaws can turn good friends into enemies
In which we use their flaws to our advantage to hurt them
Instead of us helping each other as a race
We stab each other in the back to get to where we need to go
I understand why we have flaws
Because we're not designed to be perfect
In order for us to be flawless we have to walk through the pearly gates an ask god why
Some people's flaws could be friendship
A bond that is close could be flawed by one's intentions
For this 1 in a way I lost myself and a friend and I'm sorry
These days flaws comes in all categories
Will we all take the time to get help for them by people who have strengths?
Or will our pride keep them weaknesses
How can we help those in need if we can't how that we're human and we got flaws?
What we see on TV, on campus is not people that are flawless
We see people hide behind something and they think they're flawless
The past can be a HUGE flaw in all of us
Let someone or some thing keep us stuck their
We all have to let go of that flaw because god put us through that because we're strong
Faith can be a flaw
People lose faith when things go bad because most of us do try to live right
Keep your faith in god because believe me it'll pay off in the long run
Truth is a major flaw in all of us
We hear one thing and say another
why as of people we never go to the person we have a problem with and talk it out like adults?
It may not be now, but it will be soon
Taking advice, trust, is some of my biggest flaws that I got
Everyday I'M TRYING so hard to work on them
One day I'll get there if I keep working on it
The question is will you work on your flaws, or will you let it be your downfall?